Inhale...Exhale

Sometimes u gotta run away so u can see who will run after you. Sometimes you gotta talk quieter just too see who is listening. Sometimes you gotta step up in a fight just too see who is by your side. Sometimes you gotta make a wrong decision too see who is there to fix it. Sometimes you gotta let go of the one you care for just to see if they care enough to come back.

read that today and a light flickered...

*officially stepping back*

done worrying about things I have no control over...

1 down, 5 to go....

Not to sure what I was thinking signing myself up to work 6 12hr shifts in a row but clearly I must have bumped my head.....and it doesn't help that my hospital has gone mad and it feels like were "in season" already?!



I told myself I would stay positive though....that's the plan so wish me luck!

Not Sure What To Type at This Hour....

Its almost 3am and I'm wiidddeeee awake!! Well not really....I'm actually very sleepy (like always...)
so I've been on youtube most of the night and I've discovered the most ignorant video Ive seen in a loonnggg time....hilarious though!

figured I'd share......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YEvNS5TzvwM

HIDE YA KIDS, HIDE YA WIFE! lol ha ha!

Insomnia....

sigh.....
I give up, I no longer have a healthy sleep pattern....I sleep whenever the feeling comes, and that's not too often.....that's what happens when you work night shift I suppose....

SN: I had a great, relaxing time at the beach yesterday morn!

Later!

Beach Day....

Lately I've been soooo emotional it's unreal!! The crazy thing is I can't name one exact thing thats making me feel the way I do... I guess if I could narrow down the things Im disappointed about nowadays it would probably be...
1. Gaining back the weight I worked soooo hard to get off!
2. The emotional attachment that still exist between me & my ex.
3.My longing to be back in school mixed with the doubt that I have on if I'm capable.
4.Missing my family like crazy....silly me, wanting to move somewhere where I'm near NOONE.
5.Wanting a change in personality....tired of being so timid, chill, & quiet. I'm not like that with everyone but being alone in this city is making me that way & just making the change is proving to be easier said than done.

Looking at the larger picture of "life", I realized that my "problems" are not nearly as bad as they come and I have no reason to complain but I can't deny that I've been feeling down alot this summer.

So, in response to me trying to fix me & regain peace of mind...Ive been going back to church, reading books, traveling, shopping, eating (ekk!), getting massages, pedicures, and having pamper me days....

and today is "beach day". Pray for me guys....I just want long term happiness & peace within!

Slow Night (Knock On Wood)....

Maybe its a slow night....or its my 4th night here and since I know all my patients well and my unit is beautifully clean and prepared for the next therapist to take over....I'm kind of chillin and relaxing!
Anywho..... I miss my vacation time already :(
and even though this was a easy going, fairly non stressful 4 day stretch, I just don't think I'm meant to work for a living! lol.... hear me out....

I believe I would be the perfect candidate to marry a successful man that's head over heels in love w/ me, birth beautiful children, raise them with the best and take care of my family!....I'd also love to do volunteering around whatever city I live in and travel all around the world. I would never get bored... (can you tell its 2 something in the AM!! Oh my crazy thoughts and wishes)....a girl's gotta dream!!
I guess that's about it....

Dueces!

Wooo I'm Pooped!!!

I'm officially 24!!! YAYYYYY!!!!!

I was determined to have some fun this year for my bday and that's exactly what I did....here's a lil recap!

July 8th....lunch and shopping in Orlando

I rarely get to shop so it was on and popping when I pulled up to the mall in Orlando!
........and yea...I probably went overboard and more than likely, I need a couple of days of overtime to break even..... But it was soooo much fun... and as for my favorite purchase of the day.....
...love at first sight.....yea, they bad, i know ha ha!


July 9th

MY BDAY!!!

I took it to Miami to shop and then Hollywood, FL to hang at the Hardrock with my old coworker from Tally. We had soo much fun....I love that area! I probably should have moved there after school instead of Port St. Lucie :(.... anywho, I had a good time hanging at the bars then relaxing with friends.

July 10th

Took it to Delray, FL off of Atlantic Ave....which is surprisingly a really cool area to hang out in. My friend Maya and I decided to roam around after our lunch at the Cheesecake Factory and we found it. It's like a mini South Beach right off of the water.... a long strip of shops, boutiques, and restaurants/ bars! Very nice out there!
Cant wait to go back.....

...and last but not least.....

July 11th

....a good rub down to make me forget how much I spent all weekend and reminiscence on how much fun I had and how much I appreciate everyone that hung out with me and made this weekend special!!! OK, I'm done splurging now! lol